I am a believer in ghosts. There has to be something left after the body dies. I suppose it's a comfort, thinking that. But I have proof.
Erin Zarro is a writer and poet. She is a member of a writer's alliance called Turtleduck Press which endeavors to bring quality but less commercial works to the public. You can find her on her website and blog
Quite a few years ago, when I was married to my first husband, we'd had a fight. I went into my office and cried. I started praying, and since I was alone, I actually spoke it aloud. I can't even remember what this prayer was. But what I do remember is a prayer to my grandmother, who had passed away when I was 11.
At that time, I used to talk to her as if she were right in front of me. I don't really know why, except that it made me feel closer to her.
So I'm sitting there at my desk, babbling away, tears streaming down my cheeks. I felt completely, utterly alone and that just upset me more. So I said, “Grandma, if you're here, give me – “
I was about to say “a sign.” But something extraordinary happened. My computer rebooted itself for no apparent reason. I've read that ghosts can affect electrical equipment and electricity, something about the vibrations being in tune with them. What clinched it for me was that I hadn't evenfinished my plea, and she'd already answered.
I'm sure some people would believe that it was all coincidence. That I'm reading into it more than I should. And perhaps maybe that's true. But how come I felt her presence after this happened? It wasn't just shiver or a tingle. She was there. I felt her surround me with her love.
She was there. I know it down to my bones.
The other experience I had with her ghost was in a dream. In it, I was flying above my bed. Weird, I know, but dreams are sometimes. And she was on the ground with her face tipped up, saying something I couldn't hear. And then she raised her arms as if to grab me. Or catch me, I suppose. So why do I think it was her ghost instead of just a dream about her?
It was the same presence I'd felt in my office when the computer rebooted itself. It was vivid, so real. I have no doubt in my mind that it was her.
So you probably think I'm crazy. And perhaps I am. But thinking of my grandmother somewhere, still existing, is a gift. Since we didn't have much time when she was alive, I almost feel like I'm getting to know her now.
She was a writer and poet just like me. And when I write, she's there with me in the words I put on paper. Or on the screen.
And my grandfather...he is with me, too. Sometimes I feel his presence as well. In the dream, he looked how remember him. I can still hear his voice in my head.
I wasn't able to see him before he passed, and that haunts me sometimes. However, I believe that he's forgiven me for that. And as long as I remember him, he'll live on. I wear his wedding ring in remembrance of him, of his life, of his honor.
So maybe ghosts are real or maybe it's just my mind wanting them to be. Whichever the case, it helps me to know that my grandparents are somewhere out there, watching over me.
Do you believe in ghosts? Why or why not?
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Yes, I believe 100% and always have!
ReplyDeleteOver the yrs I've had many experiences, but the ones that stand out to me the most (now) are of my ma.
She died unexpectedly 2 yrs ago in Oct. I feared that she died alone and was that way for days before my brother found her...she came to me 1 night - I wasn't asleep nor was I awake - I did not see her, but more felt her and could 'hear' her. She told me that it was as if she fell asleep and it wasn't painful and that she loved me. ever since that experience, I've been better (dont get me wrong, I still miss her and want to call her and I cry on her bday and moms day, etc). She came to me another time (I have been working to make my life better, doing things I never thought I could do). I knew I was dreaming this one: I walked into a bookstore. was quickly lifted up and carried over/thru clouds to a particular isle. When I was set dn, I looked and saw an angel figure (ma collected angle figurines of a particular style) and 1 of these was on the top of a shelf that had a sign that said 'proud'. My 3rd experience, I was taking an afternoon nap - I saw she and I driving (a past time of ours, just driving = wasting gas) - I was driving and I looked over at her, she was silent. It came to me to say 'you aren't coming back are you?' all she did was shake her head 'no'. That was TAHT, the only time I have seen her since that was in a dream as just another character.
*sorry for what looks like a run-on sentence/paragraph*
ReplyDeleteYes I believe..
ReplyDeleteSome years ago my wife and I purchased one of those really old houses that was edging towards a health hazard, we moved in and started to apply some loving and care on the house, made some changes and renovated the house.
We discovered the house had these amazing oregon pine floors that had linoleum, carpets, tiles and all kinds of covering stuck onto it, about three to floor layers of covering on the floors, we started to strip this stuff room by room, starting with the master bedroom, whilst we slept on camping cots in the lounge.
Once we had the master bedroom done we moved our four poster bed into the bedroom and got more restful and peaceful sleep. That is what I thought, one night I woke feeling a hand on my brow, I opened my eyes and there was an eldery gentleman standing next to me saying, "it is alright".
The thing was just the night before my wife and I discussed if we should change the house around, the old South African house always had the kitchen and dining room in the back part of the house and the lounge in the front part, we were talking about converting it that there is an open plan living space with the kitchen open onto this space.
To this day I am convinced that it was the original owner of the house giving me assurance and showing his approval to what we were doing with the house.
Amy - Oh, yeah, I totally believe it was your mother. How wonderful. :D
ReplyDeleteFaust - That is so cool. :D
Cheers,
E.
Do I believe in ghosts? Yes, because I hear noises at night and I think they are always watching what I do. But overall, I think they are really cool!!! Yup.
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Absolutely. I'll never forget one night when I was about 12. It had already started to get dark and I was riding my bike home from a friend's house. As I approached a corner where I would be turning left, I saw a man standing on the wide-open corner, which had no obstructions or vegetation of any kind. Since I was going to be turning there, I didn't take my eyes off the guy, but as I got closer to the corner, he just vanished. He hadn't run anywhere. He hadn't jumped or ducked down. He hadn't moved at all. He simply wasn't there any more. I kept watching the spot until I had turned the corner and gone about another block, but never saw him again.
ReplyDeleteOops! When I posted my message I didn't see a place to post my email address. Here is the address I use for contests, etc.:
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I too failed to post email.
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Thanks for posting your email addresses, LupusAnthropos and AmyC.
ReplyDeleteEnna - Yep, I love the idea of ghosts. :D They intrigue me so much.
LupusAnthropos - Wow, how neat. Thank you for sharing.
Cheers,
E.